closer i am to fine

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 15:06:53 GMT

I know my birthday isn't until January but will someone please buy me a psychobox???

http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/shopping/product/detailmain.jsp?itemID=9329&itemType=PRODUCT&iMainCat=336&iSubCat=302&iProductID=9329

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 12:35:44 GMT

6.4 miles in a little over an hour

goal not only achieved, but demolished

Signs that I have been home waaay too long...

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 22:15:07 GMT

I came upstairs to shower before going out. As I was walking up the stairs, my mom was walking down.

She had on the exact outfit I was planning to wear. Green bermuda shorts, hot pink tank top, jean jacket.

Granted, my mother and I own many identical pieces of clothing(the bermuda shorts for example. I bought them. She liked them and bought her own pair). But to pick out the exact same outfit? That's a little creepy...

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 20:17:43 GMT

today I finally to gave in

I bought Uggs.

And I adore them.

Don't worry. I will never wear them with a miniskirt.

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 20:57:02 GMT

And the cholestrol sagaa continues...

I got my bloodwork done this morning so I can see if my cholesterol regimen is working. I hope it is because I dont want to have to go on "real medication" for it. I can deal with vitamins and baby aspirin for the rest of my life but the idea of taking statins bothers me

So anyway back to the bloodwork...I inherited a horrible attribute from my father-the tendency to pass out when getting blood drawn. My father passes out every time he gets blood taken. He even passed out getting an IV put in for a recent surgery. I'm not quite as bad as he is as I have only passed out 1 of 3 times in the past. That changed this morning....

I babbled rather nervously to the very nice techncian the whole time she was taking my blood. I needed to distract myself because watching my own blood get drawn tends to facilitate the dizziness. 4 vials later she finished and apologized for taking so long to find a vein and for having to fill an extra vial (she dropped one). I laughed and said as long I left without falling down, I'd consider it a success. No sooner had I spoke then the feeling came. My limbs got tingly. I could feel pressure on my ears. Things were starting to go black. And I was out for the count...

When I came too, the very nice technician and her equally nice friend were going to help me into the other room to lie down. I thought I was fine to walk. I got up and with the two of them supporting me, we set off...Next thing I know, I was on the floor in the hallway.

Two glasses of water, some cereal and several cold compresses brought me back to life. By the time lunch rolled around, I was completely recovered.

So now I have fainted 3 times getting blood drawn.

Hopefully, my appointment with the doctor goes well on friday so that they dont take anymore for a while...

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 20:52:01 GMT

The humidity finally went away and I got in a good run this morning. I ran 5 miles. I only have a little more than a month to do my 10K. I know I can handle the distance-it's just a matter of actually running it. It was so invigorating to run outside again. Being able to breathe was an added bonus.

I also treated my tired feet to a pedicure. My toes are now the color of "Cherries in the Snow". If I recall correctly, that is Revlon's signature red. I rather like it. It has serious potential for being *my* pedicure color.

I dont know how I am going to adjust to being back at school. I really enjoy having a three day weekend every week. This year is of monumental importance-I get to start the application process all over again! Good times...not. I'm not ready to part with my stress free summer living situation even if my family is starting to grate on my nerves and my social life hovers just above pathetic. I'm just not sure if I am ready to make a major life decision. Once I have a goal in mind, achieving it isnt the problem. I just wish I knew what goal I should strive for.

At times like these, John Mayer comes to mind...these days I want to be six again. Give me a red cape. I want to be superman

Except even then I didnt know who I wanted to be...

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 21:33:27 GMT

I think today should be christened "Act like a little kid" day.

I saw Charlie and the Chocolate factory and ate popcorn for lunch.

When I got back from the movie, my pre-ordered copy of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince was waiting on the counter for me.

I've already read 100 pages.

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 13:17:17 GMT

Last week, I had a sophmore roommate from MN that I had met.

This morning, I had a sophmore roommate from MA that I have never met.

Hopefully, the new roommate will be the type that goes home on weekends often.

move-in

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 13:57:17 GMT

in case anyone cares, i'm moving in on september 1(that's a thursday). yay buswell street! please dont make me live there alone too long!

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 22:34:57 GMT

father's day rocks

we had the best dinner ever followed by the best dessert ever(tequila-tabase shrimp at Los Amigos followed by Coffee ice cream at Sundaes in case you cared/wanted to know where's good to eat in south jersey)

and i bought size 2 jeans

i also got to enjoy the hilarious mental image of olga at a camp in the woods doing things like canoeing

too bad all good things must end and it's back to work/spin class tommorrow

I'm a real runner now!

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 15:13:41 GMT

On Wednesday, we ran 5.75 miles. When I got home and took my shoes off, it looked like one of my toes was trying to sprout another toe. So I finally gave in to the fact that my beautiful Nike Shox probably aren't the right shoes for me to be wearing. So I went to the running store.

A very nice man evaluated my stride and looked at the "growth" of my toe. Ninety-seven dollars later, I am the proud owner of proper-fitting but somewhat unattractive sneakers and roll of Body Glide.

The former drama geek has been replaced by an athelete...

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 21:06:11 GMT

last night, per my mother's suggestion, we had cold stone creamery for dinner. life was good.

this afternoon, i was entirely without television or internet for almost 5 hours. life was bad.

so i read a good book in the backyard in reclining chair with my feet up and big glass of iced tea next to me. life was good again.

then the internet and cable came back. life was doubly good.

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 21:59:08 GMT

I'm a O76-C97-E31-A8-N84 Big Five!!

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 20:34:52 GMT

You scored as Gandalf. You are Gandalf! This wise, old mage is loyal and brave. He is known for his counsel and advice to his friends and allies during tough times.
"All you have to do is decide what to do with the time that is given to you."

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Samwise

69%

Gandalf

69%

Aragorn

50%

Arwen

50%

Pippin

38%

Gollum

38%

Faramir

31%

Eowyn

19%

Frodo

19%

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Sat, 22 Jan 2005 16:55:39 GMT

today my mother and i declared our friendship for one another. it made me cry. i'm starting to feel like i'm adult now. twenty is no longer just a number.

and my dad is coming up. yay for free dinners out, being driven to the food store, getting my social life subsidized and family bonding!

p.s. the blizzard needs to not come.

a haiku by B

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 02:26:31 GMT

bitchy jewish girl
popcorn counter toast giver
orgo forever

brittany's view of me in 17 syllables...though jeremy came up with the first line

scarily accurate....

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 15:28:24 GMT

every day for the last two weeks, i have clicked on update journal, stared at the screen for 10 minutes or so and given up. there is a lot that i need to say but i just dont know how to get it out.

the seasons have changed and i had to give in and start wearing my winter coat. it makes me want to stay inside all the time, curled up in my bed watching movies. winter overwhelms with all the cold/sleep/death/etc associated with it. summer overwhelms me too-it's too much. i like spring and fall a lot. they have a nice balance to them.

school overwhelms me too. maybe i'm not as smart as i thought i was. i'm still doing well, but it takes waaaay more effort than im used to giving. and if it gets any harder, im screwed bc i'm at my breaking point as it is.

i need thanksgiving break really badly. i need to be reminded of how simple things once were. i need that escape.

but as stressful as life is right now, i dont want it to end. because as soon as it ends, i have to decide what i want to do. when lauren told me she dropped pre-med, it made me re-evaluate what i was doing. do i really want to be a doctor? would i be any good at it? could i make it through med school with my sanity intact?

there are lots of questions and no answers.

but thats the story of my life. i feel like i'm fumbling in the dark for something, for anything.

will someone please turn on the lights already?

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 21:41:00 GMT

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i guess i was actually voting for kerry instead of just against bush...

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 18:34:23 GMT

now that the week from hell is over (i.e orgo lab, orgo exam, fra advising, philosophy midterm, etc), it's time for the 30 second update on jami's life

because i know how much you all care...

1) orgo may have raped me on the first exam, but i definitely raped orgo on the second one...i think that balances out to consensual sex...

2)my philosophy midterm rendered my right arm useless for about 20 minutes after i finished

3) my parents are coming this weekend and that excites me greatly

4) days that start with hot chocolate and/or oatmeal are good days

5) fridays when i have only two classes are even better days

6)there is a hockey game tonight and it should be very interesting to watch brittany try to contain herself

7) despite the constant stress that is school, i am very happy with the way my life is going right now

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 01:06:20 GMT

"I will have poetry in my life. And adventure. And love. Love above all. No... not the artful postures of love, not playful and poetical games of love for the amusement of an evening, but love that... over-throws life. Unbiddable, ungovernable - like a riot in the heart, and nothing to be done, come ruin or rapture. Love - like there has never been in a play." ~Shakespeare in Love

I definitely should have waited til all my work was done to watch Shakespeare in love. Now I can't concentrate-how can i study organic chemistry when all i can think about is love?

I hope I find love some day. Beyond the way you love your family or your friends, a love i don't even know how to describe because it's the kind you have to experience to really know what it is.

I insist that love doesn't exist-that it is a merely a biological instinct, a chemical construct. Maybe that's just because I need to reassure myself that its abscence in my life is okay. Or maybe it doesn't really exist, it's just in our minds-a work of fiction like a movie.

Asking if love exists is like asking if god exists.

I think I'll believe, just in case...

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 17:13:11 GMT

my life is officially back on track

i finally figured out what courses to take next semester.

i was beyond stressed about whether to finish my divisional studies/honors requirements or take a course for my major to make sure i really want it to be my major(bc ps211 doesnt really count) which i was doing all my premed stuff

and then i realized...genetics/principles of neuroscience aren't premed stuff. they are for my minor. i dont *need* to take either one of them next semester.

and now everything fits and i might finally have a semester where i dont border on giving myself a heart attack

heres the answer to all my prayers
CH204 (2nd sem orgo), CL213 (greek and roman mythology-satifies my last d.s and honors requirments), PS211 (so i can take experimental next year and work for disctinction senior year), and either PS251 or 241(solves the "do i like my major" issue)

::jami heaves huge sigh of relief and decides to celebrate by not doing any more philosophy of science studying::

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 15:58:20 GMT

Last night, B and I saw I heart Huckabees. And even though it was trying way too hard to be independent and deep, I still liked it. I guess it's because I try way too hard to be deep when I am really just another suburban clone dressed in head-to-toe Gap. But I get that blanket theory so it's all okay!

We saw a preview for Kinsey and I am super excited to see it. I also want to read the real Kinsey's book and see why it was so shocking. I know it shocked everyone because of its subject matter and how he dealt with it. But I still need to know how much sex is in his book about sex. I want to see how his psychological view of sex fits with the biological view. mmmmmm bio and pysch and a movie....it doesnt get any better...unless you add some ice cream. luckily jp licks isnt far from the movie theater. i am seeing a very perfect night in my near future

i dont want to do my orgo problems or my laundry. but i got a C+ on the last test and I am running out of clean underwear

just because monday and motivation *start* with the same letter doesn't mean that they have anything else in common...

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 20:15:50 GMT

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o how i miss the food network. i got to watch it for a scant 30 minutes yesterday while my brother was napping and my dad was walking spike. and it was good eats and that makes me happy. i suppose i will survive til thanksgiving when i get to have cable again...though i am sure i will end up watching tv at neils again in two weeks when my parents come up again.

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 14:07:35 GMT

psych test is in one hour

i should be reviewing, but somehow i sweated out all my motivation to be a good student at the gym this morning.

i miss the summer when i could focus on learning to like myself and watching lots of tv and making friends with my family.

my dad is coming up this weekend and it makes me very happy. he is helping my brother pick out an apartment. not just any apartment, but the very first apartment that he BUYS. he is already getting a mortgage and i still can't decide exactly what i want to do with my life. AHHHHHHH!

but no need to fret, it's friday. after 2 PM, all worries cease to exist until i wake up on tuesday morning. i heart long weekends...

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 21:08:06 GMT

last night, brittany, olga and i excursed to allston and went to a party at sean's. since we did it last year too, it can be considered an annual event.

i lowered my standars and drank a beer from the keg. and i smoked a cigar. and i laughed at brittany and olga a lot because they were drunk and acting very silly.

i stayed sober and still had fun.in fact i probably had more fun. i got to appreciate the subtle humor of sean in person, which is a big achievement considering that 90% of our communication is through LJ.

i'm still scarred from the vodka incident last march. given the choice between more keg beer, schmirnoffs and a diet coke, the diet coke seemed like the only option that wouldnt end with me vomiting.

olga took a whole roll of film, including like 8 pictures of chazz. we made her get them one hour developed so we could relieve last night.

i can't believe how much happier i am this year than last. thank you all.